Just finished Kiba. I have no clue what’s going on anymore though. I’ve got 5 minutes left. Something about completion finishing things correctly, ending things the way they should makes me pretty emotional. It seems that no matter what happens to me or how much I change, I can’t get away from myself and my past. Who I am is who I am no matter who I become. It seems that there’s hope in my future to alleviate myself from such a run down state as this.

The ending was most confusing. I miss the old AP English class. At least then I could truly understand such works of art even past the end. The anime brought me a lot of surprises. I’m happy. I feel so alone now though. I’m not afraid to go to bed, but I feel like I shouldn’t. Something is definitely missing I need to complete something before I go to bed. My homework?

I was right. Self-destruction. Unhappiness. How much of that do I know? This anime delivered more than I expected. I enjoyed its presence in my life.

I can’t believe it. After all of these years, I had only three more chapters to go, and I could’ve finished the manga. I FINALLY DID IT! Pretty Face becomes the first manga I put into my COMPLETED folded. I’ve finished a few before, but nothing that’s been serialized. I really wanna get in touch with the writer and tell him/her how good of a job he/she has done. Man, I would’ve loved to have finished this one much sooner, but I really enjoyed the ending with the “outtakes” and such. Worth a read if you enjoy romances and comedies set in a Japanese high school setting.

I just finished Taiyou no Mokushiroku, A Spirit of the Sun. Oh man, was I totally wrong in wanting to not watch the two part movie after the first minute. I hope there’s a sequel. This movie that came out in 2006 really deserves some love. It made me cry without shedding tears if that makes sense. If it was a year ago, I might’ve shed tears, but my age has hardened me, but luckily, not enough to stay too far from my humanity.

Take Japan and split it in two, think of the world ending but not really. I dunno really what to say about this, but here’s a couple torrent links so you can have the chance to watch it too:
Episode 1
Episode 2

The only thing I can say is that I’d like to see what would be part three of this darn inspiring movie.

I now have it under my knowledge that I am able to create a self-sustaining energy source through psychology. Although physical constraints hinder me from completing this task as, after a certain point, a my mind will temporarily deteriorate into what would border insanity. It is then that I lose the psychological will to kill myself by not allowing sleep. It’s not so much the thrill of dying as much as it is my own bothers which keep me up each night and cause me to stay up past any sort of reasonable time.

None of this knowledge is new though, it is merely reserved from my sleep deprivation. It is only such a time where I am open to constant, crazed thought. What mindless indulgence do I produce at such hours far past a reasonable hour, even farther when sleep-time wasn’t allotted the night before. Death lingers near each time I run my body off of small fuels alone. Will I be able to break the habit even in my current state of awareness? Will I wake at an hour which my biological clock notes as healthy?

Probably the most important question of them all is my sustenance. Will I be able to be refueled properly after this nap or will I tire and have to recreate the self-sustaining energy source? Only time will tell. I will leave it to my time-tellers to determine my future. Oh how I have longed for such a moment where the possibility of a regular weekly sleep schedule can be reunited with my body this Thanksgiving Break. How strong am I to accomplish the tasks ahead of me?