Today I am happy. Apparently I’ve been at a fairly decent level of happiness in the past few months or so.

My level of excitement is far above the average of say, the entire year of 2007. Even with all of the trips I took and such, I don’t think I’ve been this excited since sometime in the spring of 2006. I clearly do not remember having much if any excitement during the fall or summer of 2006 so it seems like I might be returning to a world of fun!

I’ve also learned a great deal about myself in the last few weeks as well. If I could graph it, it’d be this exponential curve going very up. The only way to continue the trend is to see if there’s anything else I can learn about myself. I’m sure it’s gonna plateau off now though. While it’s not every day I learn stuff, but if taken on a week-by-week basis, I am going to be learning a lot about myself each week, it’ll just be roughly the same amount. Since the amount seems to be a very high number, if you could categorize learning numerically, my level of happiness will probably also rise. In order to control a rising level of happiness at such a rapid but unchanging speed (again, week-by-week), then I will most definitely need to be keeping myself in-check and carefully watching each and every move, making sure to notice even the smallest changes. I just want to ensure I stick myself to a process of realistic thinking as best I can and to not hurt my own feelings in the process.

I think I’m going toward good things and my sense of evil is dying out which does well to increase my level of happiness. Now to see if I can just keep this up.

I have started another anime. Why? I was running out of episodes of the ones I was watching because I either finished just about all of them or they became licensed. Kinda sucks, but that’s the way things work these days.

I can’t tell what I’m feeling right now. So freakin’ weird. I calmed down from eariler though.

“You raise me up.”

Gosh, that song ha a lot of feeling now. Like I’ve said since the beginning, this beats the play. This is probably the most entertaining anime I’ve seen in a long time because of how much I obsessed over it after seeing the trailer. I do not miss it though. I won’t forget it though, it was quite well worth watching. I almost feel the same way as I did after watching Saikano minus the crying. Not even a tear, I didn’t need to because their love was so complete. Their love was as real as any I’d seen.

“You raise me up.”

– Kevin Out

[Update]

The chord structure of the ending song is the same as a composition I wrote. No wonder I felt like I wrote it somehow!